23 iMessages, 7 emails from 3 different accounts, 6 Facebook notifications, 8 Snapchats, 3 Twitter notifications, and 17 GroupMe messages. I left my phone stagnant for 2 hours. That little red push notification is about to drive me up the wall. I am completely immersed in a digital world and there is nothing I can do to get out. I mean, I guess I could throw my phone against the wall; however even that wouldn’t do anything because my waterproof, dust proof, shock roof, Life Proof case would save it. Thank goodness. Not.
Feeling overwhelmed is an understatement. The part that is most unsettling to me is when adults from an older generation say something like, “I know how you feel, I was in college once too” when I tell them I’m stressed out. Um, no you don’t!
Did you have a device constantly buzzing in your pocket demanding responses immediately? Did you have to learn to ‘multitask on steroids’ to the point that everything you can do at once is almost super human? Did you have the stress of dealing with uncooperative technology when trying to finish an assignment? Did you have to constantly check Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, email, text messages not only because you’re addicted to it but because that’s how people nowadays communicate? I don’t think so.
However the point is, I’d be lost without it. I suffer from FOMO disease – fear of missing out. Once everything is said and done, all of my responsibilities are fulfilled for the day, my hair is washed, my teeth are brushed, it’s time for me to go to bed. The problem is, I lay down and stare at a bright screen for probably an hour before I even think of putting it down and sleeping. I have to make sure I didn’t miss anything throughout the day. From this FOMO disease in which I self diagnosed, stemmed another common disease, TOMA – turned off my alarm. Because I lay in bed for hours staring at a screen, I don’t get much sleep and therefore cannot get up in the morning. I turn off my alarm, which is on my iPhone resting comfortably in bed with me, and end up waking up minutes before I have to be somewhere.
There is no turning back now. Now that I have made the leap into the digital world it is nearly impossible for me to even take a peek backwards. Middle ground is a thing of the past, it’s all hands on deck for this girl.